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Thursday, May 5th, 2005
10:23 pm	good shit hxc_photog 2005-05-05 05:11 (link) 01. you are a really good kid 02. the frou frou album 03. 3am... we were always up late 04. dork 05. we had a ton... im really glad 06. nyanko hahah 07. im really happy we are still friends 08. Put this in your journal. I am glad we were able to be friends and I do miss u babe Current Mood: content Current Music: coheed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
12:40 am	well what have I been up to oh yea nate,nate,nate my life is pretty much chillin with nate and work and some times seeing other people I miss jocelyn alot so I'll probably go and see her this weekend of go to strange ways tomorrow but I'm kindda broke and in debt so we will see. I miss my baby I hate sleeping alone and not waking up to see his cute face. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO in love Current Mood: loved Current Music: the # 12 looks like u (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
6:10 pm	awsome movie table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td></td><td> You scored as Miho. </td></tr> Miho 60% Gail 60% Dwight 55% That Yellow Bastard 40% Becky 40% Marv 35% Shelley 35% Lucielle 30% Hartigan 30% Goldie 30% Nancy 25% Manute 10% Kevin 10% Jackie Boy 10% What Sin City Character are You? created with QuizFarm.com</table> Current Mood: geeky Current Music: some crap nate likes (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
7:38 pm	so awsome so just a quick update for all of you. I got dropped from my class for missing too many of them which sucks but my emotinal state was not awsome at all. I am still working at victoria secrets but am currently looking for something else where I don't have to sell credit cards to get hours. But I enjoy the people I work with. I also have been spending all my time with nate which is damn awsome he is damn great. me him and josh are such a team of dorks it is awsome. Tomorrow I have nothing to do so I might go to the wrentham outlets then to worcester for some hanging out. peace out homies Current Mood: content Current Music: converage (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
4:23 pm	feelin messy so as things go I had a tough day yesterday some times in relationships people get confused and I understand. But it is tough to go through that no matter how many times you've done it. I adore u and know that no matter what happens to us that I want you in my life in some form or another. So in addition I'm on zoloft and it is making me sleepy and my sex drive is gone. Well I am going to take a quick cat nap take care sweeties Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: vegas vacation (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
9:54 pm	i miss my old friend bob he was awsome and we had some good times we were so close for like years since 7th grade til my 2nd yr in college. Now we never talk and I don't know what he is doing I just want him back in my life like woah Current Mood: cold Current Music: tv (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
7:15 pm	blah so as it goes I've been having like none stop anxiety for days. I just don't know what to do with myself I feel like I can't leave the house but I do. I then just sit there waiting for the next panic attack to come on. I just don't know what to do with myself booze doesn't help like it use to it just makes me freak out too. I remember when I use to feel normal. I just want to feel normal for a day. God tell me what I have to d or give up to get that feeling back. I don't know what to do with myself Current Mood: anxious Current Music: tv calms me (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
2:23 pm	bad dream the sequal so a few nites ago I'm sleeping as I like to do. I have this dream basically what it involves was two dogs and their owner. so one of the dog dies. But it some how brought back to life and is some sort of possesed beast he starts eating other animals like horses etc. and all I can see under this dog and the other one which is living are corpses mangled remains and bones and then the other dog says to the dead one I'm glad you are here. yep just me and your dead body. I was like alright thats good enough for me. I seriously need my head examined Current Mood: sick Current Music: ssssh comp lab (Comment on this)
Monday, February 7th, 2005
1:32 pm	miss u I miss my baby come home now so I can give you kisses and snuggle you to death but in a nice way <3 Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: josh playing game cube (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
7:11 am	I'm dumb so I crashed my car yesterday into a dumbster I'm such a fucking retard it isn't even funny. my face hurts my knee hurts I hurt inside everything is fucked up. I'm just glad that my parents didn't yell cause that would have put me over the edge. also having josh here helped me get shit done Current Mood: crappy Current Music: senfield (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 17th, 2005
5:57 am	MY BDAY!!!!!!! my bday is tomorrow fuck yes 22 send some love my way Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: trivium (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
11:36 am	interesting I'm not sorry for the things I've done and never will be this is who I am. I miss u and care about u and if I did something to make you hate me I'm sorry I don't know whats wrong with me. I need out I need some air I thought I was a good person was I wrong? Current Mood: sad Current Music: fear before the march of flames (Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2004
2:06 am	alright I need to get this off my chest cause it has been freaking out for days. I'm pretty sure this will not seem pleasant and it damn isn't for me. The nite thursday, I had some fucked up dreams the one that has been making me feel uneasy and just freaking me out is this one. I was walking around in my dream and came upon a house seem normal enough it was sorta like a catholic school house there was a nun and school children very religous yet this is not the part that gets me. Two guys come in after I had been wondering around the bring with them this dog. I like dogs don't get me wrong but there was something horridly wrong with this one. I look at him and yes where his eyes should be were just sockets no eyeballs and he was maggy and sickly and just all around bad news. The men proceeded to torturing it. Then the dog flips and starts attacking. I get caught in the mix some how and end up needing to kill it. But I used my hands I basically broke the dogs head off from the rest of his body. So um yea needless to say I have been having trouble sleeping since this event. Thanks for listening and sorry to disturpt u all. Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: silence (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 25th, 2004
4:51 pm	so I have gotten a total of maybe an hour of sleep. I got up made some food and such and my body just started to freak out I started to gag and threw up what I had just eaten wooooo!!!! Anxiety fucking rocks hardcore. Now I'm waiting til 5:30 am to go to the airport so I can be there early and such. Wish me luck people or pray that I make it home in one piece. <3 Current Mood: anxious Current Music: tv or somethin (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
1:01 pm	cutest thing ever went to NH to see my sweetie before xmas. When I get there we went to dos amigos burritos so yummy then went back to his house and opened gifts and we both gave each other napolean dynamite. hehehehe so awsome. I am thinking of watching it in a few but it isn't the same without chris in the back round saying every line. eh well tomorrow work and then green room go u know you want to. HAPPY FUCKING XMAS BITCHES!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: anime (Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
2:53 pm	dude this girl right here totally gets to go home for xmas which is so damn awsome. I've missed my family terribely. My bros my mom tons!!!! and my dad and of course the puppies. I'll be back around on the 31st merry fucking xmas bitches!!!! Current Mood: tired Current Music: tv eyes (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
2:27 am	eh just another day. Class then going to work cause they called me in so I'll be working 5 til 12 WHAT?!?!? yea thats right 7 hrs of the work. My gums are fucked up as well so I need to see a dentist asap. I just need to do all this crap and I don't have the money nar the time. I was suppost to take natas to the vet but I can't so I get to take him tomorrow at 7:45 am wooooo. I am so exciting I could just die. DIE I tell you. Current Mood: listless Current Music: confusion-new order (Comment on this)
Monday, December 13th, 2004
6:16 am	I never realized how awsome I feel when he is around me I just want to dance and scream THIS IS FUCKIN SWEET like all the time. He is so amazing he does my dishes when I'm at class. He treats me so sweetly. He is funny and adorable. Just fucking awsome. you rock,rock Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: lil john (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 12th, 2004
7:47 am	I'm just waiting for some thing to happen any thing really. but until then I'll be spending my days staring at this lovely chanel bag which I want badly http://www.chicandsleek.com/images/ch21.jpg some one should buy this for me please!!!!! I would love u so much Current Mood: good Current Music: bloc party (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
2:12 am	gay so gay so I have been having a shitty week of anxiety attacks and such they are no fun. Had a major one on monday so I had to leave work. Then on thursday I couldn't work cause I had class and my stupid boss scheduled me for when I had class but I left a note last sat saying I can't work 11-3 during the week. So she says she never got it GOD!!!!!! lady get your shit together so today she tells me that I messed up her whole schedule for this week cause I can't work certain times she schedule me cause of class. This job of mine is just about the gayest thing ever. I also worked this morning and am going back in at 5 to make up for some lost time so dumb but whatever. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: rock me amadaus (Comment on this)